Bad Boys Love Passionately
Bye-bye, black bird.
The world may want to protect fragile women from “bad boys” and how dangerous it is to date them, I would like to argue that it’s everything a woman needs. As a woman, when it’s time for me to date I look for men in places others don’t. For me not to cheat and neglect my love interest he must be intriguing, intelligent and insightful… in my world I call it the 3 I’s lol. The typical blue-collar man won’t satisfy my lustful, rebellious appetite… I need edge, double edge sword, and most importantly thrill. Great criminals don’t get caught, to be clear I am not a ride or die type, if a love interest of mine gets arrested the love affair is terminated by 12am on the dot! I’m a lady first and ladies have decorum, I’m too gorgeous to be with an inmate I don’t deserve the mob wife struggle love.
There are levels to bad boys, you have your street/drug dealer type, scammers, gangs, mafias, etc. Those are played out baby, you have to move up the ladder to see there’s higher caliber of bad boys… the kind the government wants because he’s that good at his job. I dated a few, I have some stories I will share a later time. When a woman looks at a man she doesn’t see a man, she sees a world. A world she could potentially feel safe and secure in. There’s no benefit in dating a naive guy (unless you’re only in it for the money) that has no knowledge of the real world because if anything happens to her while she’s alone or with him, he’s not going to have the knowledge to figure out a solution to the problem. Life flashes before her eyes and she realizes she’s giving her pretty cooch to the wrong man. DONT let it be her husband, oh how awful that would be.
Bad boys get a bad rep! Majority of the boys are misunderstood, and it takes a special kind of intelligence to have compassion for them. Yes, most of them will drag you in their emotional turmoil but if you’re a strong gyal you will be just fine. These men are typically isolated in every single way, very few friends, have a set schedule they never break (not even for their beloved girlfriends) there’s strict rules to dating them and they don’t have social media. You’re dating a ghost but if the ghost f*cks me good and love bomb me, I’m happy with Casper and Casper is happy with me. Together we will take advice from Sade and cherish the day.
Hitman 2007 R 1hr 34min
This is one of my favorite movies, my mum tells the family every chance she gets how I use to come home from school and watch Hitman. I had to be around 11 years old watching this and in awe of every character. I was a pre-teen getting turned on by movies (don’t judge me). I love the wardrobe styling for Nika Boronina and how she forms a relationship with Agent 47 who was sent to murder her, but the plot is bigger than both of them as to why I recommend you to watch. This movie does a great job of showing character development from an agent point of view, a man who was born and raised in a facility to be a professional killer, the owners trained the boys to not fall in love with women due to how messy it can get and distract them from their missions. As always, love wins.
Public Enemies 2009 R 2hr 20min
I was 13, hot and horny when Johnny Depp played John Dillinger, this movie is based on a true story. Ronan Bennett and Ann Biderman adapted Bryan Burrough's 2004 book Public Enemies: America's Greatest Crime Wave and the Birth of the FBI, 1933–34. John Dillinger was an American gangster during the Great Depression. He commanded the Dillinger Gang, which was accused of robbing twenty-four banks and four police stations. Billie Frechette, the woman who stole his heart later said “John was good to me. He looked after me and bought me all kinds of jewelry and cars and pets, and we went places and saw things, and he gave me everything a girl wants. He treated me like a lady." The d*ck was so good she served 2 years in federal prison for harboring a criminal. Not only is this movie 10/10 but please watch it at night with the lights off to immerse yourself into their world baby!
Salt 2010 PG-13 1hr 40min
Evelyn Salt I love Angelina Jolie. This is a movie I had to watch 3 times to understand the plot, forgive me, as a woman who admires a great storytelling I normally need one watch lol. The roles are reverse in this movie, instead of the criminal being a man with a mission it’s a gorgeous tall woman with sexy legs in charge of the mission. I won’t reveal any spoilers for those who haven’t watched it. SALT reminds me of Hitman due to both characters having the same mission and falling in love, knowing damn well that’s forbidden. Salt and Agent 47 both were children who were taken from their birth parents and put in a facility to be professional killers. Evelyn Salt only concern was the safety of her husband her mission came second.
Psychology Propaganda
I don’t know if I ever shared how I felt about therapy becoming mainstream, but a part of me wishes it didn’t. We are in the era of walking on eggshells, the overuse and milage of “toxic” “narcissist” “boundaries” “gaslighting” “trauma” and “trigger”. I want everyone to shut up and go for a long walk, never trust a thought pass 10pm at night and learn to let your emotions come and go. In my non-medical opinion, I believe everyone is holding onto “depression” and “anxiety” a little too tight for my liking which is preventing people from experiencing a life worth living, friendships worth exploring and learning. I worked hard to break from indoctrination, shielded my personality from those who wanted me to look and act like Kanye’s house he shared with Kim Kardashian, very bland and neutral. I am full of life and color, I love the good and bad within me, the goal isn’t to erase the bad things, it’s to learn how to live with them. There will never be a pill created to take all your emotional turmoil away. You may benefit from being numb, the numbness will wear off and you’ll be looking at yourself again for the millionth time.
I say this because everyone talks about wanting a love so good they almost cry and they don’t realize they are standing in the way of that experience due to being indoctrinated. I’m aware I’m attracted to dark/horror things and instead of thinking myself as weird or cringy, I accept it for what it is and educate myself on how to maneuver. What I like is what I like, and no one must like it but me! I don’t live for people; I live for myself and desires. If I want to date a ghost who gives me deep orgasms, I will and if I want to stick my French fries in my chocolate milkshake I will. Women have suppressed their desires far too long and I will not indulge in such activity, I made it my business to not overstep what my body wants me to feel, there may be an underbelly of wisdom and truth lying there waiting for me to catch it. No therapist, medicine or religion will ever come between me and the truth that wants to seek me.
I really want to write a bad boy. I gotta figure out the levels bc my 'bad' boys don't end up being all that bad. Like... I don't want dark romance bad. But not Disney good either.